I wish you love.

"...but before you walk away I, sincerely, want to say I wish you blue birds in the spring to give your heart a song to sing and then a kiss....  ...but more than this I wish you love and, if you like, a lemonade to cool you in some lazy glade, I wish you health and more than wealth I wish you love. I wish you shelter from the storm, a cozy fire to keep you warm but most of all, when snowflakes fall, I wish you love."

   Why would I settle with that?
   Because I know, by now, it's the closest I can get to spending time with someone that way.
   It's been so long and the chances it happens are so scarce, I've been single for such a long time and it's not like I can do it with just random people, unlike sex...           ...oddly enough.
   I love cuddling, sleeping with somebody. It's hard to get tired of it, I assume, I haven't had the chance to do it until I got tired of it.
   That's why I settle with so little, because those short periods of time with someone I trust enough to be with like that, when I allow myself to forget it won't last long, which feels a little like play pretending, are precious to me. I wish it did last though....

..I always do anyways...

...when it happens.